1. Blue eyes, sometimes grey, sometimes green.
2. Smile, trying to keep it in my eyes, and on my lips.
3. Still addicted to hope, friends and internet.
4. Don't wear glasses, though I should.
5. Setting my mind and heart free, step by step every day.
6. Woke up yesterday to an empty sky.
7. Building slowly my own paradise, setting some rainbow connections.
8.Waiting for Edinburgh to come true.
9. Driving my car.
10. Lost sometimes in modern world.
11. Still don't understand Turkish.
12. Believed in Destiny and Fortune last Monday.
13. 2/3 coffee, 1/3 milk, 2 spoons of sugar.
14. Portofino, Małe tęsknoty, Amsterdam.
15. Lady Dragon.
16. Living alone in my room.
17. Moonlight.
18. American Literature.
19. Apple juice.
20. Diploma paper.
21. Guerlain, Aqua Alegoria, Herba Fresca.
22. Serendipity, you never know...
23. Sunspots.
24. Don't go anywhere without camera.
25. Quiting smoking.
26. Three bracelets.
27. Counting flowers on the walls.
28. Having some good memories.
29. And some wonderful as well...
30. Being lazy.

Fingers crossed

I've just stopped loving you.
I've just opened
the window of my heart
the door of my soul
the gate of my mind

they haven't been open for such a long time
too long time

I have to warm them now
it's so cold inside
I have to fulfill them now
with sunshine
with smiles
with laughing tears

I've just stopped loving you.
just like that
quietly
gently
successfully
with one thunder of surprise
exactly in the same way I felt in love
with you

I put the moments in a big box
I put the box in the basement
I don't want to look in there
not anymore

I've just stopped loving you.
I've just set some memories free
I've just let them fade vanish disappear

I've just seen my reflection in the mirror
... words never spoken stopped on my lips...
they are waiting
for the perfect time
the moment in between

... wise thoughts dancing in my hair ...
enjoying their moments
of existence

... smile in blue eyes ...
without looking back
just straight into the future

I've just crossed my fingers

08.03.2006

out of my mind

how did you get this far,
understanding nothing at all
you're nothing but small talk,
is there anybody home
is there a secret plan that you follow,
do you do any thinking of your own
make up your mind,
flip a coin or something
just say anything but i don't know
you do so much sneaking around,
is it some kind of a stupid little game
let's pretend that you're the master mind,
and i'm your little blind dope

stay out of my sight,
i'll put you out of my mind
don't even want to know you anymore
stay out of my sight,
i'll put you out of my mind
out of my mind
don't even want to know you anymore
stay out of my sight,
i'll put you out of my mind
how did you get this far,
understanding nothing at all
you're nothing but small talk,
is there anybody home
transparent,
simple mind
just hold your hands over my eyes
unless you're trying to insult me
you'd better work harder on those lies

by Samiam